Patience & Perseverance

FINALLY all the patience and perseverance that I have to endure these years has pays off... I was offered a post in the government sector, though it is not my dream job...

I can't believe my ears when Ms Nurulizzah from Putrajaya gave me a call and offered me the job... After much thought I accepted the offer with my whole heart, and book an airline ticket to KLIA since I am required to attend a short briefing there.

Now, this is my second week working as a civil servant... true to the Hijrah concept, reluctantly, I moved to Betong, Sarawak, a three-four hour journey from my hometown. The catch is, I am a civil servant of a government sector posted in Betong... Really, Betong is totally new place for me...

As I am writing this, in Sibu,.. I am preparing for a new experience all together... will be boarding again to KL this afternoon, for a week introductory course in INTAN Kemaman, Terengganu...

Alhamdulillah... Thank you all...

Life = Risk

WENT for an interview yesterday for a post as a clerk in the government sector. Being trying my luck all these years, but sadly, I guess, the probability for me to be a civil servant is rather slim.

People said that by working in a private sector, you have better career and salary compared to those in governments. Well, that is partly true.

TRUE if you are in a group of higher qualifications and are working in a big company. FALSE if you fall in the rest of the other group. Isk, isk, isk… I’m talking about the private workers here… The situation might be different if you are working in your own company.

However, considering the economical crisis we are bracing, landing a job is considered lucky.

I like my current job if you wonder (or not). There is a job satisfaction in the field I am currently ventured in. Though in a long run, I am stuck with what I am having right now. I need to consider what will becomes of me in 5 years time. No need the think further than that, if the first one is quite pathetic.

Might be this is a curse for not studying well (or using the opportunity) during my college years. No need to regret what have passed. And no need to be arrogant of what I have achieved (or not) for the so called ‘alternative blunders’ I took years back.

This is me.

I took a wrong path somewhere in my earlier life.

This is me.

I failed to make use the opportunity that were given to me during that day. Probably the unlucky ones would curse if they knew the gift was wasted on me.

This is me.

I will never let the past mistakes that I have done as an excuse for me to be a failure.

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And for that, no matter what people said, as one of my weakness is “fail to acknowledge no as a definite answer”, I will keep trying, without any regrets, to do my best in any arrears I am in, and keep pursuing my realistic goals.

Realistic goals? Heh, now I am babbling…

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If you’ve never failed, you’ve never lived.

Now I have to wait for at least 3 months if my interview yield any result.

Sorry for an anti-climax conclusion… ehehehe

Recommendation

AFTER much thought and considered opinion from the people around me, I have made my decision. It was hard. Part of me wanted to go, and the rest told me to stay.

Ditelan mati mak, diluah mati bapak

• Tried the Pro & Cons Approach: - ah, same result!
• Tried asking for firm opinion from friends: - some are for, and some are against. Interestingly, most (not all) of positive opinion I got are from the people from the Government Sector.
• Tried to bring it into my dreams, just in case: - Did not remember anything accept for a background song sung by Illyana. Huh, just like talking about my dream's soundtrack!
• And tried my last resort: - called the office directly this morning and asked for more information. What I did find out that there is no permanent vacancies available, and this post was not in the past advert that I have applied for. The higher pay is already included with the allowance.

So, I've decided to

DECLINE the offer
and wait for another chance
(which may or may not come by...)
Isk

Did thank the person (Mr. Dusil) for his consideration and asked him to call me if anymore vacancy available in the future, especially for Sibu or Kuching.

Thank your all for your opinions, heated forum in Mychubs (mirc Dalnet), friends from BBM and YM last night.

Guess that I will stay longer here than expected… ehehe

Undecided (Help!)

AROUND 1430 hrs today, in the middle of bz-nak-mampus-MonDay, I got a call that I did not expect to receive.

“Sekejap yer” a soft spoken voice was heard. Hmm, must be a cute girl. What have I done this time? “Sapa lah nak mintak bayar hutang nih…” I thought.

“Ini dari Lembaga Lada Hitam. Ada datang interview tempoh hari tak?” And I answered yes. Oh o, finally I got the long waited result. This should be good.

“Dukacitanya dimaklumkan permohonan anda gagal.”

What the F**K! Taking all the trouble just to inform my application was rejected. Probably this is the government new policy to be more transparent – directly call just to tell us the down-in-the-drain results rather than leave it for at least 6 months.

“Tapi pihak kami ingin menawarkan satu kekosongan sebagai Pembantu Hal Ehwal xxx…" (xxx is used because I really don’t remember the last word)

“… di MIRI...” Oh oh.

“...taraf kontrak...” Double trouble!

“...gaji lebih kurang sama dengan N17...” Hmmm

“...lapur diri 2 haribulan 9 nih...” Er, no comment.

“Encik boleh hubungi saya esok untuk memberi jawapan.” What? Less than 24 hours to think about it and reply?

Arghh, what should I do? My mom, hearing the news, immediately call my aunt in Miri that I will be coming. Wuyooo, Blom apa2 dah ketuk beduk!

Undecided, I started to send sms most of my friend about this and ask for their opinion.

Currently, after more than 40 sent messages; got few replies.:

• Misia: (voice call) Ala, nama jampat amai kita kat gi dien? Nyau la kawan aku situk. Pagilak aku gi Kapit 3 ari, tinduk diak. ok bai.
• Johan CBO: (voice call) Aih, amik ajak, ada mak madah tek, rugi ko sik amik... mcm tempat aku tok, cekgu sandaran ya, seribu lebih gaji ya.
• Klangchub: Tak yah g lah erk. Bunyi mcm xbest jer. Ermmm... Kalau g jugak, makin jauh la kita.
• Jamil Sibu: Gaji brp? Taraf hdp miri mahal.
• Mil Matsak: (1st sms) Venture ba, apa salahnya. (2nd sms) Bila nk celebrate tuk? Sblm kau chow, jelaskan rm150 dolok hehehe... (3rd sms) Jgn d pikir gilak. Pegi ja krna masa dpnya bah. Enjoi blh d cari & jumpa d mana2, yg ptng masa dpn mak oi!
• David Medica 013: Boleh cuba.
• SexlyChub: Kalo gaji skel spm utk apa..
• Isot JPJ: Trimak jak.Bgs ya.Kontrak brapa?
• Hasan JPJ: (voice call) Apahal madah aku? Hahaha, takut ko lekat kat kotrak ajak, mcm Lembaga Lada Hitam di Lanang ya, byk kontrek sampei bertahun2. Takut sidak tuk sakit nak konfirm.
• Fadzly Klang: (voice call) kalo setakat naik RM200 jer tak yah ler... Ko gi sembahyang istiqarah la mlm nih.
• Jason sibo: Hey bagusla klu mcm2,ada ofer.rezeki u,jgn tolak,bkn senang nak dpt.ambil saja ofer 2, peluang skali saja klu x kena tungu byk tahun. congratulation!

Erm, how do I choose?

In the mean time, it's time for me to write my resignation letter, just in case...