“Hajat di hati nak bergerek, apakan daya kaki ku patah…”

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“Hajat di hati nak bergerek, apakan daya kaki ku patah…”

LET me introduce to you an idiom i created myself for the situation that overwhelmed my condition nowadays.

This idiom have two different interpretations, at least,  yet can be interchange with one another, depending on how is one’s perception, of course.

To explained the exact definition and what have happened to me that makes me come-up with this idiom, let me clarify the meaning of gerek.

Gerek (pronounced geghek) derived from a northern Peninsular malay slang meaning bicycle.  Hence the idiom above can be translated as “Wish that i could ride a bicycle, but I have a broken leg” – easily interpreted as one who wish he could accomplish a task but has to confront with a condition which makes him incapable to fulfill it.

Kaki ku patah (literally broken leg) explained one condition when you are unable to go anywhere, often because of the lack of transportation. People always exclaimed that if their vehicle is broken or in the workshop, their legs are also `broken’…

Another meaning of gerek, derived from Sarawakian language, bores the meaning of lover. Heh, you get the idea…. Bergerek, in Sarawakian is having a lover. Hence this idiom is translated that one wish to have a lover but unable to go somewhere to get it. This idiom is well suited for the people who are having a long distance relationship (LDR).

Arrrrr, I’m having all the above condition at the same time…

The closest old-school idiom for the above is the hyperbolic “Hajat di hati nak peluk gunung, apakan daya tangan ku tak sampai” (Wish that I could hug a mountain, however my hands could not reach it).

P.S.: My Gerek above is different form the one you can find in MTV Gerek Seh! hihihihi

Long Distance Relationships

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I still remembered my first long distance relationship (LDR) which started around 9 to 10 years ago.

It started with a cordial chat, through mIRC, with a person who are from the land which formerly known as Temasek. “Pelangi Petang”, sung by the late Sudirman Haji Arshad, brought back the memories. Mind you, even our LDR did not last long, but it is long enough for me to understand the meaning of love, kindness, patience and despair. Not forgetting the experience of having a person occupying your heart throughout the ordeal.

After that, my love life wandered like the small soap bubbles in the sink – circling into the vortex which eventually will be drained out through that darn pipe. Having a network of close friends during those years somewhat occupy the void feeling I had then.

Through this, I would like to send a thousand loves and kisses to my friends from Bigboyz (formerly known as MyChub). Without the emotional supports from you guys, my world will be as dark and lonely as I would ever imagined.

Life goes on…

I followed my heart which landed me back to the Land of the Hornbills. If not, this would be my second LDR. The life pace here is totally the opposite of what I had back in KL. But I was determined, committed with what I have chose and was happy of it. Period.

Until,… something, somewhere, the relationship started to aged over time. We became duller and further apart. And it ended with a reminder that no matter how you chose or took to sustain a relationship, LDR or non-LDR, you are and always be an outsider in other’s family’s niche.

We finally parted with a mutual agreement. Though we are not together anymore, there is still a bond which reminded who we are before and after a long relationship.

Second stage…

I am back to my hometown, and prepared for any circumstances that comes along the way. Or it was my first thought… Getting laid here is rather easy. Hik. But getting someone to fill your heart is a challenge.

And as a single happy-go-lucky person in this town, I cannot avoid of the love-hate lonely feeling that keep haunting me all these time…

I started from a scratch here,.. and (maybe) I have met someone… and it is another LDR all over again…

Arghhhhhh!