Friday, December 31, 2010

New Year 2011 Eve

HAPPY New Year to all readers of this blog...

(into the unknown)

4 weeks already since I have step into the unknown. My new post as a government servant gave me new insight and hopes for my future, though we are supposed to be busy at the end of the year, literally, I have nothing to do yet at my new office, very different indeed if compared what I have experienced in the private sector.
Goodbye 2010... It was an emotional and challenging year for me, but a great bound at the end.

(dare to wear pink this year?)

Happy new year, everybody.. Sorry, got a writer block at the moment... will catch up later...

If you have nothing to do this new year eve, just watch the celebration online, in 3D... make sure you have the 3D glasses ready, though... So, what is your resolution for next year? Hihihih see u all next year...

Monday, December 13, 2010


ALHAMDULILLAH... I have arrived to my destination in Institute Tadbiran Awam (INTAN) Kemaman, Terengganu...

Very cosy place... situated by the beach and with 3-star rated room for us... I was paired with another Sarawakian.

But out schedule is darn pack... as early from 0700hrs till midnight... Just forget about any plan to visit Kemaman areas...

We are busy with the fun orientation today... good thing free wifi is available here.. yahoo!

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Patience & Perseverance

FINALLY all the patience and perseverance that I have to endure these years has pays off... I was offered a post in the government sector, though it is not my dream job...

I can't believe my ears when Ms Nurulizzah from Putrajaya gave me a call and offered me the job... After much thought I accepted the offer with my whole heart, and book an airline ticket to KLIA since I am required to attend a short briefing there.

Now, this is my second week working as a civil servant... true to the Hijrah concept, reluctantly, I moved to Betong, Sarawak, a three-four hour journey from my hometown. The catch is, I am a civil servant of a government sector posted in Betong... Really, Betong is totally new place for me...

As I am writing this, in Sibu,.. I am preparing for a new experience all together... will be boarding again to KL this afternoon, for a week introductory course in INTAN Kemaman, Terengganu...

Alhamdulillah... Thank you all...

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

“Hajat di hati nak bergerek, apakan daya kaki ku patah…”


“Hajat di hati nak bergerek, apakan daya kaki ku patah…”
LET me introduce to you an idiom i created myself for the situation that overwhelmed my condition nowadays.

This idiom have two different interpretations, at least,  yet can be interchange with one another, depending on how is one’s perception, of course.

To explained the exact definition and what have happened to me that makes me come-up with this idiom, let me clarify the meaning of gerek.

Gerek (pronounced geghek) derived from a northern Peninsular malay slang meaning bicycle.  Hence the idiom above can be translated as “Wish that i could ride a bicycle, but I have a broken leg” – easily interpreted as one who wish he could accomplish a task but has to confront with a condition which makes him incapable to fulfill it.

Kaki ku patah (literally broken leg) explained one condition when you are unable to go anywhere, often because of the lack of transportation. People always exclaimed that if their vehicle is broken or in the workshop, their legs are also `broken’…

Another meaning of gerek, derived from Sarawakian language, bores the meaning of lover. Heh, you get the idea…. Bergerek, in Sarawakian is having a lover. Hence this idiom is translated that one wish to have a lover but unable to go somewhere to get it. This idiom is well suited for the people who are having a long distance relationship (LDR).

Arrrrr, I’m having all the above condition at the same time…

The closest old-school idiom for the above is the hyperbolic “Hajat di hati nak peluk gunung, apakan daya tangan ku tak sampai” (Wish that I could hug a mountain, however my hands could not reach it).

P.S.: My Gerek above is different form the one you can find in MTV Gerek Seh! hihihihi

Friday, September 10, 2010

First time in Aidilfitri 1431H

EVERYTHING seems to be a `first time' for us in this year Aidilfitri celebration.

 (Yasmin, my niece, admiring the LED lights...)

We celebrated raya without two of our brothers - my youngest, who has to work in Sabah, as a policeman, and another, who has just passed away on July 2nd.

It was our first oddly raya... :P

Raya celebration ran quite moderate today, anything else, it was full of rest and relax... :) 

Selamat Hari Raya to all the muslim readers.
Maaf zahir dan batin...

click to watch slide show below:

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Bapak (Father)

MALAYSIA will celeberate it's 53rd Independence Day on August 31st.

(1 Malaysia, Generates Transformation)

Following, is a song, written and performed by the late Sudirman Hj Arshad and was dedicated to the father of Independece, tunku Abdul Rahman Putra Al-Haj;

Lihat ladang kita
Terbentang luas
Subur dan menghijau
Tanah yang MERDEKA

Ini rumah kita
Pusaka peninggalan
Untuk melindung keluarga yang MERDEKA

Yang hendak kukata
Pengorbananmu memberikan kami
Kelahiran yang MERDEKA

Terima Kasihku
Generasi Baru........

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Ramadhan 1431H

(image source:

has arrived…

As the third Pillars of Islam, ritual fasting is an obligatory act during the month of Ramadan. Muslims must abstain from food, drink, and sexual intercourse from dawn to dusk during this month, and are to be especially mindful of other sins. Fasting is necessary on every Muslim who's age is more than 11.

The fast is meant to allow Muslims to seek nearness to God, to express their gratitude to and dependence on him, atone for their past sins, and to remind them of the needy. During Ramadan, Muslims are also expected to put more effort into following the teachings of Islam by refraining from violence, anger, envy, greed, lust, profane language, gossip and to try to get along with fellow Muslims better. In addition, all obscene and irreligious sights and sounds are to be avoided.

(ehehe my typical lazy days on the Ramadhan afternoon…)

And this Ramadhan will be our first without my dear brother,..

Before this, when both of us went to Bazaar Ramadhan for some prepared delicacies for the fast-braking, we often shares the cost that both of us has purchased, though it always be “I-point-you-pay” attitude.

This year there will be no one else to share the cost. This time it is all left to me to purchase them, at my own perusal. Alahai…

Breaking fast together with my family today seems quieter than the previous years… We just sat together, recite the doa, and then ate whatever that have been prepared before us. Nobody tried to mention anything, since we are trying to avoid any conversation that will tied to my late brother.

You know, each time my late brother’s name popped-up, my mum will get a little emotional (and tears), and personally, I hate that mood-spoiler thing…

Yes, I do miss my brother, but I also have come to realise that life must goes on, with or without him...

To all readers of this blog: “Selamat Berpuasa, dan tambahkan pahala tu…”

Sunday, July 04, 2010

Goodbye (RIP my Dear Brother)

YESTERDAY afternoon (Friday, June 2nd), I receive a phone call from Jamil, my first younger brother, urging me to rush to the ICU pronto, I was in the middle of a busy day in the office. Instinctively, after texting sms to Shahgul and Hanif, telling them that I am unable to fetch them at the wharf, I drove straight to the hospital.

“This is it,” my mind wandered as I drove.

A night before, around 0100, I stayed with him until my eyes can’t take it no more. Tiredness do demand a respect from us to get a rest. My mom was next to him reciting Yassin while atuk (grandpa) teaching him the Shahadah. Nothing much I can do on that night, beside holding his cold hand, and reciting al-Fatihah. The doctor has permitted us to enter the Intensive Care Unit (ICU), even though it was way after visiting hour. A CPR was preformed on him 5 minutes earlier, as he had a cardiac arrest.


“This is it,” my mind drifted again, as I walked through the walkway leading to the ICU. The walkway seemed quieter than usual as I passed by some people who are waiting for their own family member. Mentally, I have prepared for this – or at least I thought so… Their eyes, glancing at me, look different today…

The inevitable has occurred. A final visit to the Intensive Care Unit (ICU), Sibu Hospital, yesterday afternoon would be the last time we stepped our feet into that place... I saw Jamil broke in tears while waving for me. He broke the news to me, Johan, my second brother, has finally passed away. I was only 5 minutes too late…

I did not cry… Keeping my calm, after a brief al-fatihah recital, I hold my late brother’s arm, stroking his hair a little and gave a kiss on his forehead, then excusing myself to send few sms to Shahgul, Hanif, my towkey-nyior and my Facebook status.

My brother was admitted into the ICU for 32 days since May 30th and was treated for mycoplasma encephalitis, a type of a brain infection. Since then, he was also treated for Catheter Associated Pneumonia and liver impairment.

Yes, I did not cry,.. yet. But it was not easy. Nobody said it was.

The hardest part is how to break the news to abah (dad). With abah’s own weak condition, I reminded all the family members not to inform abah just yet,.. After a few discussion, Jamil and I will confront abah about the news, with neighbors to calm him.

Abah nearly fainted when we informed him. Before this, we never told abah about Johan’s real condition, only that he is stable and able to smile when mom cracked up some jokes and celebrated his 29th birthday on June 27th.

But abah fainted twice when the body has reached home at around 1600… Everybody was still in shock. Johan exhibits some good progress on the 10th to 30th days in ICU. Still unable to speak, he was able to blink his eyes and move some fingers. But it became deteriorate after the doctor performed tracheotomy on him. Fever also caught-up with him throughout his stay in there.

When the body was laid to the floor, and to be prepared for bathing and shrouding, I secretly went up alone to my room.

A silent burst of tears finally flowed along my cheeks.

I cried… I did cry…

Johan… my brother’s body was laid to rest this morning (next day) at around 1030 in a gloomy yet peaceful day.

Me and my family wish to convey gratitude to all the family members and friends who has showed their support (physically or morally) to us…

(Jutaan terima kasih dan pernghargaan kepada sanak saudara dan rakan taulan yang memberi sokongan dalam mengharungi musibah ini. Mohon halal dan ampunkan segala kesalahan, andai ada, arwah adik saya sepanjang perkenalan anda dengan dia… Andai ada apa-apa yang terhutang, sila hubungi saya sekeluarga dengan seberapa segera…)

Al-Fatihah… Rest in Peace, my dear brother…

Thursday, June 24, 2010



TIGA lima, or Three Fives, or 555, is a small book that synonym with debt. It is an unofficial small book that often used as an reminder of how much a person owe to another, usually between a housewife and the sundry shop’s owner.

Long use before the arrival of credit cards, this book gave the holder a power to purchase goods from the shop and paying the amount at the later days, preferably at the end of the months. It is a ‘credit card’ in the 80s.

In this gloomy month that I am experiencing right now, I am presenting this book for all the well-wisher who has (and will) wishes me greetings, especially my friends from and facebook. With my father’s health that seemed to be below the par, and my brother who is in his 25th days admitted in ICU, your greetings/wishes does glimmer some light of hopes to me.

Since I cannot repay the good deeds you have contributed, I’ll write your name in my personal 555 book, reminding me to repay them later…

Heh, I am 35 years old today… mid-30s... that darn burning massage cream is my companion!


Sunday, May 30, 2010

Saturday, May 01, 2010

May 1st - An Encounter With a Chubby Kid...

HAPPY Labour Day for all those workers out there, no matter if you are working or not today...

Even Sugar Bun offered a great deal in conjunction of this day... RM 0.99 Beef Burger. I bought 5. Got a lot of mouth to feed today...

Sibu's traffic jam is terrible today. Good thing that I have chose to drive around town using the Avanza. Automatic transmission is very handy during this hours... Have to brings my parents for some groceries shopping today. Failure to do so is easily translated to no food will be prepare on the table throughout the week! Alamak!

Then, when walking alone in market, I saw him. A cute handsome chubby kid, whose keep staring at me, as if calling me to come and grope him! Erm, after a cordial introduction, I finally decided to take him home with me,.. together with an opportunity to have some great action with him... Ah,.. even in Avanza, this chubby kid has started to do his thing, show off! Hold on boy... wait arr, I still have to on my camera first!... Jeng jeng jeng...

Friday, April 30, 2010


YES, I'm back for blogging, I hope.

Sorry for abandoning this blog for too long... Not much action happened with me lately that is worthwhile to blog about. ehehee.

Just to share to you some new post, for example a new way to park your car without paying the parking fees any more...

The road is straight, but the car still veered to the ditch mysteriously...

Closer view


Arr... Probation licence! ehehehe

Er, that car is not mine. Just saw it 'parked' perfectly in a ditch of a straight road this morning.

Well this week, 2nd Annual Cup Prix will be held. Will post about it later...

This is just a start,.. at the mean time, please enjoy this video I made for you all...

Monday, January 18, 2010

HIATUS: Definition

- 6 dictionary results

[hahy-ey-tuh s]

–noun, plural -tus⋅es, -tus.

  1. a break or interruption in the continuity of a work, series, action, etc.
  2. a missing part; gap or lacuna: Scholars attempted to account for the hiatus in the medieval manuscript.
  3. any gap or opening.
  4. Grammar, Prosody. the coming together, with or without break or slight pause, and without contraction, of two vowels in successive words or syllables, as in see easily.
  5. Anatomy. a natural fissure, cleft, or foramen in a bone or other structure.
1555–65; < style="font-style: italic;">hiātus opening, gap, equiv. to hiā(re) to gape, open + -tus suffix of v. action

Related forms: hi⋅a⋅tal, adjective

break, interval, space.

SOURCE: Unabridged
Based on the Random House Dictionary, © Random House, Inc. 2009.


Related Words for : hiatus
abatement, reprieve, respite, suspension, foramen


hi·a·tus (hī-ā'təs)
n. pl. hi·a·tus·es or hiatus
  1. A gap or interruption in space, time, or continuity; a break: "We are likely to be disconcerted by . . . hiatuses of thought" (Edmund Wilson).
  2. Linguistics A slight pause that occurs when two immediately adjacent vowels in consecutive syllables are pronounced, as in reality and naive.
  3. Anatomy A separation, aperture, fissure, or short passage in an organ or body part.
[Latin hiātus, from past participle of hiāre, to gape.]
hi·a'tal (-āt'l) adj.

SOURCE: The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition
Copyright © 2009 by Houghton Mifflin Company.
Published by Houghton Mifflin Company. All rights reserved.


Word Origin & History

1563, "break or opening in a material object," from L. hiatus "opening, rupture, gap," from hiare "to gape, stand open." Sense of "gap or interruption in events, etc." is first recorded 1613.

SOURCE:Online Etymology Dictionary, © 2001 Douglas Harper


Medical Dictionary 1

Main Entry: hi·a·tus
Pronunciation: hI-'At-&s
Function: noun
: a gap or passage through an anatomical part or organ; especially
: a gap through which another part or organ passes

SOURCE: Merriam-Webster's Medical Dictionary, © 2002 Merriam-Webster, Inc.


Medical Dictionary 2

hiatus hi·a·tus (hī-ā'təs)
n. pl. hiatus or hi·a·tus·es

1. An aperture or fissure in an organ or a body part.
2. A foramen.

hi·a'tal adj.

SOURCE: The American Heritage® Stedman's Medical Dictionary
Copyright © 2002, 2001, 1995 by Houghton Mifflin Company. Published by Houghton Mifflin Company.




in prosody, a break in sound between two vowels that occur together without an intervening consonant, both vowels being clearly enunciated. The two vowels may be either within one word, as in the words Vienna and naive, or the final and initial vowels of two successive words, as in the phrases "see it" and "go in." Hiatus is the opposite of elision, the dropping or blurring of the second vowel; it is also distinct from diphthongization, in which the vowels blend to form one sound

SOURCE: Encyclopedia Britannica, 2008. Encyclopedia Britannica Online.